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Life Lessons - sugar & eating too much
My thoughts as I sit here with my stomach protruding because I chose to eat cheetos with home made chicken pie at supper. That was 3 hours ago and my stomach is still distended. What is it about this feeling that I really like? I must like it or I would do something about it. Yet when I eat, I eat because of the taste and there is something in my brain that over rides my sanity. I have studied it before, but not written out my feelings about it before, so perhaps this is a new way to figure out my oldest life lesson, which is to be good to my physical form. Geeeze, now I want a chocolate bar. Good thing I don’t have any here in the house. I do have maple syrup though, I could go take a swig of that.
What does it do for me? Numbs me out, puts my brain in a relaxed state, makes me breathe a nice deep sigh of relief. That’s all good and fine until it hits my stomach, then it sits there and blows me up like a baloon and I look like I am pregnant. Hmmm….How long shall I go on with the same old issue?
I gave up drugs in the 80’s, cigarette’s too, oh and basically drinking too. Then there was the ending of my need to be a victim in the late 90’s early 2000’s. What else is there? Oh, yes, most recently, giving up the need to control all situations and relaxing into life, allowing other people their thoughts, opinions, feelings without having to compare mine to theirs. And anger was in there somewhere, I let that go for the most part, using it only when I want to stand up for myself, but not to control anyone anymore. I do appologize to those of you whom I have used anger on as a control in the past. Definately not good form. Sorry.
Ego, letting go of having to be “special”, wanting to stand out, be the best, do the best….well, that one still trips me up sometimes. Mostly food is what I don’t want to budge on. I can give up eating too much, eating sugar, fried foods, dairy, bread and such for a month or so, but that is about it. Then I want it all back in my life and the 5 pounds I dropped in a month comes swelling back on. Well, actually it comes swelling out into my belly, right there, looking like I am pregnant when I am not.
I choose to write about the addiction to sugar and food this evening but to not do anything about it. Maybe tomorrow I will choose differently but for now I am going to take a swig of pure maple syrup right out of the bottle and feel my body calm itself, like coterizing all the little nerve endings that are so eradically dancing around causing me to feel too much.
Love is all around….big smiles, tomorrow is another day and fresh perspective.
What does it take to change a Life Lesson that entails letting go of sugar?
Beginning a dialog with myself today to see if I can actually change one of my major life lessons. It is around food and I suppose there a many of you out there struggling with the same issue. I am going to write my true thoughts and see if I can track, observe and understand when, why and what pushes me into the deepest recesses of this life lesson.
I know when I eat foods that fuel me, I feel much better, I have more energy, my head is clear and I get a lot more accomplished.
I also know when I eat foods like sugar, processed, fried, heavy, cheesy or dairy and wheat then my digestion is lethargic, bloating me, weighing me down and putting me to sleep.
Why then do I need to be sleepy when I truly want to be awake and alive? Is it more habit or is it a need?
I look forward to your comments, questions and your own experiences with these same thoughts and feelings. May something in this writing set us free from the self sabotage and creation of that which we really do not want.
Love & Joy, Rhonda
Old Beliefs
Most of you at one time or another has wondered about the mysteries of living on this earth. Why things work the way they do, or the way they do not. Wondering why your emotions run rampant and yet at other times there is a deadening of the self that makes it even difficult to feel any emotion at all.
Your mind is multifaceted, concentrating on one or a few things at a time, yet pulling in thousands of bits of information at any given time. All of those bits of information, good and not so good impact you in either positive or negative ways. It is all dependant upon how well you are able to understand and work with your emotional guidance system.
The conscious mind is the part that is aware as you move through your daily routines. The subconscious mind is the part that holds every particle of information that comes into your knowledge base. The iceberg below gives a wonderful representation of how different the conscious vs subconscious mind is.
The part above the water symbolizes the conscious mind because it is seen and you are aware of it. However, the greater part, all that lies beneath the water, is symbology of the subconscious because you are not aware that it is there. Rest assured though, it is and the part you are not aware of, the subconscious mind, is the part that is running your life. This is where your old beliefs reside.
So, let’s go back to the emotions and tie this all in. The premise is that when you feel a certain emotion, then the majority of the time it is not the circumstance that is happening in the present moment that is triggering that certain emotion. You are being triggered by your subconscious knowledge base that is full of the old belief systems, which you have formed through the years based upon what you have experienced.
The way you can check this out is the 10 minute rule. Say you are angry about a certain situation, if your anger lasts more than 10 minutes and does not feel resolved in that amount of time, then it is something down in your subconscious that is holding you in the pattern of anger. Some old belief that does not want to let go.
Think about it this way. If you are happy about something, doesn’t it just feel natural and phases into another emotion or non emotion with ease within a few minutes? When you are happy, your mind is clear and feels good. Yet when you are angry for any length of time, your mind is not clear. In fact it is usually talking to itself incessantly about what should have been said or done or it is busy pointing the finger and running through the scenario that happened over and over again, trying in its limited way to make it so that it, the subconscious mind, can be in control and feel safe.
Homework:
How can you clear some of the old beliefs and move into a more positive flow in your life?
1. Take out a little note pad and write down every negative thought coming from your mind and words coming out of your mouth for one day. These are negative thoughts you may have toward yourself, others or situations that are happening to you. Don’t forget that these sometimes come out in the form of simple little complaints too. Write them down.
2. Once you get a good look at how many negatives are coming up for you in a single day you can take a deep breath, all the way down into your abdomen. Just breath and know that you are only doing what you know how to do up until this moment in time.
3. Then pick one area where you know you will have success and make the decision to change your language. Maybe it is the language you use towards someone else close to you or perhaps you start right in on the language you say to yourself. Be aware of what negative thoughts are there and then think before speaking, only let something positive flow out of your mouth in that particular area.
Don’t worry; this exercise is not about beating yourself up. It is to become aware of what is coming from your subconscious that is negative and does not serve you any longer. In the awareness comes the change and changing one little thing will ripple its effect out through your life in ways you would have never imagined.
Please don’t feel like you have to do this all by yourself. Go to http://www.healingthewoundedsoul.com/home.html and make an appointment to work with me personally. I will take you through your Soul Map Reading, laser in on which old beliefs are not serving you anymore and give you the tools to create that which you truly desire.
In Light and Love,
Rhonda
Winter Solstice 2009
I can’t believe another year has swung full circle already. I think there were many things on my list of to-do’s that did not even get touched. Oh well, it will be just fine and they may even get completed in 2010.
This year we had Winter Solstice again here at Earth Spirit Healing Center and what an amazing night it was! We had 32 people show up for the festivities compared to last year 7 people showing up. I know the energies settling in these past few months have brought with it a lot of change for people and I believe that folk of like minds are ready to gather, learn new things and have fun celebrating different traditions. It is very exciting to see the changes that are occuring and to be a part of the creation of that.
We began the evening with a pot luck, you can only imagine the fabulous mouth watering goodies that showed up! I am still waddling around. he, he….
Next, while we digested some of that food, Deb and Nic led us in a Peruvian Despacho Ceremony of Light with the intention of bringing Peace to the world.
We created Kintus, which are prayer bundles, each of us adding our prayers and intentions to the Despacho.
Despacho completed, how beautiful! I have been to several of these ceremonies and each one is very unique dependant on the people that show up, the energies required for healing and the intentions set.
After the Despacho is complete it is wraped up into a bundle and used to wipe down each person, releasing any dense energies or anything not wanted. Once that was complete we had a drumming and sound session that lasted about a half hour. Again, amazing energies felt by all and it allowed time to connect within to contemplate, meditate and experience a higher vibratory rate than normal.
Mike led us through an exercise that helped us to connect with a partner, make a heart connection and to speak something that their soul wanted to know. To me this was more than I had expected. It opened a place in my heart and soul that had been afraid to open and express herself. Thank you Mike!
And after all of that, those who could stay and join us, went out back where we built a fire in the sub zero weather with Sister Wind howling at us, speaking of mind shifts and moving past our fears. Once Brother Fire was roaring with glee we offered the Despacho to Pacha Mamma, Mother Earth and she quickly gobbled the offering up. We sang, we danced, we connected again on a deeper level knowing that we are not alone, ever. Our Ancestors, our Elementals, our Guides, our Angels and our Power Animals are with us always, nudging us to the next best thing and bringing us into the collective consciousness so that as we heal ourselves we heal others as well.
There is Great Love For You All! Thank you for sharing and the willingness to experience celebrations that are different from the norm.
Aho! Kimama Angeni
Love & Joy, Rhonda
Camping at Bar Harbor
Byron and I spent our next to last camping trip at Bar Harbor last week. What a beautiful week it was! Whether was terrific, I beat him at a game of mini golf, we played canasta, ate seafood, went to the new WalMart in Elsworth and drove up on Cadilac Mountain. Yes, I know, sort of wierd to go camping and end up at WalMart, but we needed a few things and I was down on chocolate for my s’mores….mmmmmm.
Here is a picture of Byron and I with Sophie at the top of Cadilac Mt.
I made a smudge in the fire pit one morning, thought it was going to be an actual fire, but only turned out as smoke. Every time the smoke headed in my direciton I moved my chair to get out of the way. The smoke kept following me no matter where I placed my chair, so after the 6th time of moving, (yes, it takes me a while to “pay attention”), I finally looked right at the smoke as it curled its way around me and asked what it was trying to tell me. My Guide Silver Eagle showed himself and told me to go get a pen and paper, which I readily did and when I sat back down I started writing as fast as I could. Two hours later my next e-product was pretty much ready! Totally Amazing!
So, moral of the story is this: when you are working with smudge, pay attention because the messages come through with clarity! Stay connected to Source, allow the writing or whatever form of creativity to show itself and take on a life of its own. This is what the soul loves, to be the bridge between the spirit world and the human world. It is there for everyone.
As for my new e-product, you will have to wait until its reveal, and that will be very soon!
Love & Joy,
Rhonda